Diaries of Daisy

We all know our physical health has a direct affect upon our mental health. So why when you’ve been consistent in the gym and diets improved exponentially, you still sink further into a depression. Is that a form of body dysmorphia? (Are there “forms”?)

I know I’ve always been a person who has very little self discipline, especially when it comes to food. But I’ve developed a routine, reduced the amount of food I eat, and lessened the amount of alcohol I consume but the depression creeps in ever so slowly.

Isn’t working out supposed to bring out the “happy hormones”?

Daisy’s getting stuck in a rut and the gym hasn’t been helping. If anything it’s caused the dysmorphia to come on stronger. Social media has had its affect as well, duh. I’ve already limited myself on what accounts I truly get on. IG is a definite no-go. But now TT has gotten to my head as well. The following of gym influencers has benefitted me just as much as hurt me. You get so many good ideas and new ways of thinking while simultaneously making you feel worse.

The initial plan to better myself by going to the gym is long gone, perhaps I’ve done everything there is to do in the physical realm, now developing a stronger mind is what’s left.

Basically, Daisy’s got a *l o n g* way to go.